Going Home

Part 5

Josh’s immediate reaction to be by himself was partly the result of him reverting to how he’d dealt with things in the past. He’d always had to deal with this alone. He was used to working things out on his own. But turning his head and looking up at their apartment it hit him that he wasn’t alone anymore. He had Grace in his life now and he realised belatedly, that talking to her may help him work out how to handle this.

However his leaving was also prompted by the concern that feeling the way he was, he would say something to hurt her. He knew that talking to her about this would require going back over painful ground to explain more fully to her what happened. Josh looked away from their home, back down the dark street. He wasn’t sure he could do that. Opening up about it the first time was almost more than he could bear. 

But as time passes unnoticed he realised he wasn’t sure he could do it without Grace either. He certainly wasn’t getting anywhere by himself. His head hurt and he couldn’t think straight. Maybe if he talked to her he’d get a new perspective. She already knew the worst of it and she may help make things clearer. She had a way of doing that. With this thought the pain in his head eased a bit and more grateful than ever for her presence in his life, Josh got out of the car and strode back across the pavement to their apartment door.