Betrayal

Part 2

After a few minutes Sarah sat back and tried to pull herself together. Even though it was the last thing she felt like, she needed to get back to work. Digging around in her bag she found a tissue and wiped her eyes. She didn’t bother checking the mirror.  She knew full well she looked terrible, but it was nothing on how she felt. Taking a deep breath she blew it out and turning the key she started the car. 

All the way back to work she had had to fight to stop the tears flowing again and walking back into the office she could tell from the searching looks she got that everything she was feeling was etched on her face. There was nothing she could do about it. Stopping in the kitchen before heading to her desk, she made a coffee and used the time to try to compose her face and contain her emotions. However sitting back at her computer she knew it hadn’t helped. Jen, with whom she shared an office, was looking at her. Sarah could feel her eyes on her, even though she hadn’t looked at the other woman. After a minute the expected question came “Sarah, are you okay?”

Forcing a smile Sarah turned and looked at her “yes, I’m fine.” She and Jen were close. They saw each other for hours every day and talked about everything, but Sarah couldn’t tell her this. She couldn’t help but feel that this was a failing on her part. Even though she wasn’t the one who had destroyed it, she just couldn’t admit that her marriage was not what it should be .

“You’re sure” Jen said, her expression worried.

Turning back to face her screen and effectively bringing the conversation to a close, Sarah opened a new window and said “yep.” After a few minutes she felt Jen’s eyes move away from her. She knew the other woman wasn’t convinced but she was thankful she hadn’t pushed it.

Betrayal

Sarah pulled up in the driveway and turning off the ignition, she bit her lip to stop it trembling. Her husband’s car was in the drive way ahead of hers and sandwiched between them was her best friend Gayle’s. She had been told that they met here at this time of day when she would normally have been at work, but she didn’t really believe it until she saw both cars. Now she was having trouble breathing. How could they do this to her? And in her own home no less. She just couldn’t get her head around it. Even with the evidence in front of her, her mind was frantically searching for another explanation as to why they were both here together. But deep down she knew there wasn’t one.

What she had to do now was to work out what to do about it. If she went in there and confronted them there was no going back. It would mean the end of her marriage and no end of upheaval for the kids. How could she do that to them? But then could she cope with the alternative. Could she face either her husband or her friend, knowing what she did and pretend it wasn’t happening? She needed to think. Backing out of the driveway she drove a short distance down the street and parked. 

With all her heart she wished she hadn’t come. She wished that well meaning person had never told her what was going on. While she was ignorant, she was happy. But they had told her and she had come and now her head hurt. But it caused her nowhere near as much pain as her heart. She had trusted them both and they had betrayed her in the worst way possible. As she sat there tears began to fall and she was powerless to stop them. Leaning her arms on the steering wheel she put her head on her arms as sobs racked her body.