Idolatry

But Win began to panic when he lay over her and dragging her mouth from his she said “Cole I can’t do this.”

He looked down at her. “Okay” he said “but why?”

“Because you aren’t meant for me” she said trying to roll out from under him.

Cole wouldn’t let her move. “Why?” he said holding her in place.

“Because you’re better than me. Is that what you want to hear” she yelled as embarrassment and frusrtration displayed itself as anger and still trying to push him off her. “You’re incredible looking and smart and and I don’t know what…. I just know that I’m none of that.”

“Win stop it” he said.

She wasn't sure if he meant talking or moving. She did both.

“Look at me” he said.

She did.

“I am not better than you. I’m a man, you’re a woman that’s the only difference between us.”

Win bit her lips to stop the tears from spilling over.

“If you don’t want to sleep with me, that’s fine I’m not going to force you, but not for this reason Win. I don’t understand why you put yourself down. You’re a beautiful, intelligent, caring person. Why do you think I like you?”

“That’s just it, I have no idea” she said, her voice breaking as she began to sob.

“Let me show you then” he said lowering his head and kissing her throat. “Let me show you how good we could be together.”

Win closed her eyes and fought to get her breathing under control.

“Please Win” he said between kisses “let me show you that we’re made for each other.”

“Oh god Cole” she said.

He lifted his head for a moment. “No God, just Cole” he said with a wry grin.

Win looked at him and laughed through her tears and when his lips found hers all levity dropped away as more powerful emotions took over.